i tried so hard to keep the flowers alive but they died / 2021, acrylic on canvas, 50 by 60cm
Text reads: 'I return to the scene again, only to find what will be tomorrow’s memory. I try to suspend this moment, it fades. I try to see the things that I can’t and feel the things that I won’t. The ghost of the previous image (surface) haunts me as I begin to the make the next, presenting itself in situ as I trace my way forward and then back again, in my attempt to freeze the flow of time (or whatever that thing is that brings us from one moment to the next), but I fail. The day next I try to picture her again, but still the person is not there. I pretend to myself that I find her, neither of which are true. I tried so hard to keep the flowers alive but they died. Every day I tried to keep their beauty intact. Their organic fragrance, it dazes me, like a familiar perfume which this cold surface can’t hold within it’s blurry boundaries. They lose their form and all my attempts are in vain. This is a story of loving and losing, knowing and feeling, living and death, with all the spaces in between. In the end, it all disappears. But for now, I will continue to move down the path of these images (surfaces) that seduce me and turn my imagination into hallucination'